Sunday, June 11, 2017

How do you feel .

You asked to go my own. You forced me to have my own path.

You mocked me for depending on you. You mocked me for wanting to be with you.

You said, go out and have my own life. You said, you have a life for you to live.

Your circle will be your circle. My circle would be mine. They won't mix.

After years, I realized, I can live without you. I can live without depending on you.
Depending on you was never a pleasure but rather a huge responsibility you have to endure. I finally realized depending on you is a wrong thing to do.

I was never myself. I was never the person I am. I realized I have been comforting you way too much that I forgot my own happiness, my own wants, the person I am.

Now, when I be myself. You hate me. You can't bear with me. I was wrong the entire time. All this while I let you do the decision. I don't let my idea get in your way. However,when I voice out my wanting now, it seems so wrong to you.

Can I bear this for the rest of my life?
Can you accept the fact that I no longer follow your way cause I have mine too?
Can you accept the fact that I have my own stand now?
Can we go through this?

Monday, April 24, 2017

Nope.

In all honesty, I truly hate being tickle.

Monday, February 6, 2017

Sing a long ~

Just a little sharing on my current jam :)






Thursday, January 19, 2017

It is sad to be you

You maybe got him physically but you never get him emotionally.

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Note for the stalkers

To the people who had been reading my blog and stalking my privacy.

Here is a note for you,

One day you going to realize that looking over me is not worth your time.

One day you will realize that your emotions should not control your decisions. How many times you are actually proud of your decisions? Think again.

If you did not overcome your hatred and anger today, it will somehow eat you later.

One thing which is really important is, you cannot force people to love you nor force them to change for you. If they did,know that it is not for love or sincerity. One change for you when they decided to.

You have to realize that the world doesn't evolve around you.

Karma do exist. You are not perfect, what you did to the person you hurt, you will get it back. Like it or not, this is your karma. But that doesn't mean it is the end of the world. Life can be better but it all depends on how you react to it.

You have so many ways of solving the problems in a smart way. Use your sense, be classy, take things professionally.

I'm not perfect either. I've been in a lot of situations that disappoint me. I've been crying for nights over a guy. I've been begging for love,for them to stay. Threats, logics and sympathy. It's never going to last long.

Love is something you can't force. Love supposed to make you happy. Love supposed to make you smile.
If it is not,it is not love but pain.

Realize that love is not about winning the race. It is about building relationships together. Creating and planting loves. If the aims is to get the person then you are sadly not in love with the person.

One mistake in the past and astrological belief won't help to decide your future life.

You can be better. You can have better.
Think wisely.

Thursday, January 5, 2017

Last year : 2016

Happy New Year 2017 peeps!

Sorry to waste your time, todays blog post is a recap on my 2016 hehe.

Twenty sixteen has been amazing. I have learnt so much in a year. I met many people through out the year. I changed my jobs four times in a short period. I am happy. I am sad. So many things happened in a year. What may seems long is actually not, three hundred and sixty five days is a blink of an eye. 

Throughout the year, I met beautiful people who inspired my journey. The people that I love in so many ways. The people who is lovely, amazing and incredibly kind. I also met people who were not very nice but still made a way to leave footprints, which teach me that I can't satisfied everybody and like wise not everyone we met were the lovely ones.

I have been in few situations that teach me we can't always have what we wish for. I have been turned down by the world's decision over my hopes, dreams and wishes that I can't reach. Good things may come at the wrong time. Not a very good things may come at the right time. Life is ridiculous that way. It makes me questions a lot of things. Sometimes I don't even understand why things happened the way it was. Confusion. Curiosity.

It was the year I learnt so much how to be a responsible, independent, energetic adult. I came to realize that I'm never an adult like how I Imagined I will be. In fact this is the version of me that just happened to be. Of course, I got to work on being the version that I imagined. But l want to enjoy the young time while it lasts. Now is the oldest that I will be for today. 

Being an adult is about decision making and life up bringing. The decision I make today define my life in the long run. It scary that way. It is also about how I bring my life together. Getting back up after I fall down. Not letting cyclone of life affect so much of my emotions. Problem solving in the best way possible. Life is not perfect. I make mistake, experience the bitterness of it and learnt from it.

People come and go. After so many years past by, I found out, the people that had been with me for so long are the one that still there to accompany me, being my friend in their best attempt and these are they people I want to share my happiness with.

I'm thankful in so many ways. To the joyful moments where I laughed and smiled my heart out. To the griefing moments where cried my lungs out. I'm grateful I learnt how to handle life.

It has been a tough ride. Rough and grumble. To more life possiblities and challenges ahead, I hope I will be able to ride twenty seventeen in a better and wiser journey.

To the people who made my twenty sixteen amazing,
Thank you so much for the wonderful memories. I hope we will never grow apart and even if we do, please continue being great and keep on being lovely so you inspire more soul in the future.

To the wonderful families and lovely ones,
I'm greatly thankful for having a people like all of you in my life, who had been sharing thoughts, knowledge, supports, non stop love and hugs. Thank you for being with through my ups and downs. Seeing me at my worst and stay through it.

To the people I have hurt or have hurt me (intentionally/unintentionally), that I might not realized or realized,
You are the people who have teach me about forgiving, egoistic, humbly and acceptance. That's the reasons you were in my books. Some things were hates in disguise. It might be something valuable to learn.

All in all, it has been a tough one but definitely not dull.

To many more amazing moments, lovely memories, good people, positive vibes, truly wonderful life ahead and blessing journey for now and the future. 🍻

Rina signing off
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