Tuesday, August 3, 2010

I still stand on my feet

First, i want to say sorry to boyfriend
i know this supposed to be our privacy
but there is no other way i can tell..
because whenever we talk about this
it's always end with argue..
and i'm no longer want to argue
i'm so tired of argue!

About what you text me this morning,
i'm okay with it..
i confessed that i'm sad to get that text but is okay..
i know our status! very much!
i remember what happened in the past
i know what happen now
and as i told you before,
until now,this moment i typing this post
i was still preparing myself for the day

Boyfriend dear,
i know how much you love me
and you know how much i love you
it's different!!
the feeling we gave to each other is not same..
we both also knew that..

I know what's your feeling to me
You know what's my feeling to you

Thanks for always remind me of our status.
Even if you dont remind me i also remember.
You dont need to scare, i know it well.
Even if i'm going to hurt in the end..>i know i will..
Just dont care about that..
Cause once the day come
i know you wont care anymore

AND now,
please do what i ask you to do
please give me...
if it possible..please give me
what i want is just easy..
i know that you know what i want
there's a lot..however the most important i can say is
i want you to..
i've told you before..
please be honest to me!!
even you just love a little..but please..please..
don't lie to me..
You can hurt me with the truth.but please dont hurt me with lie.

I know what woud happen to the relationship later...
Yes! i might be stupid idiot because was still here..
being loyal and keep loving you..
Dont ask me why i still here!!
You know why i still here.. you can know it yourself..

Eventhough you only have a little love for me
But i still have a lot for you
Again, dont ask me why is it like that!!
You know it well..

Boyfriend dear,
i always awake!!
i always know about our relationship
i admit that i didnt listen to you
i was never stop loving
i always pray that i could handle myself when the day come
believe me! hurt is for sure! but i cant change fate!
if the hardest part is coming what more can i do?
all can i do is just accept..

you are not my first love..
however, you are the one that i really really love
the love i gave you is much much more than before
the feeling is different than before..
is no longer 'puppy love'
this one is real one..
i just can say myself,was unlucky.

Boyfriend dear,
dont ignore me again!
please gave me much happiness
please appreciate the love and care i gave to you
do whatever for our relationship now
save it before the day really come
please give me love that i want from you which includes everything..

I know you dont want me act childish
SO, you dont act childish too..

I'm maybe not mature enough as you wanted
but i've mature now!!
mature is not only attitude but is the way we think too
i think like an adult!!

YOU..I can see it!!
There's a time when you act or think so not mature
but i won't blame you..
because i respect you..very much..
because you're also not mature enough
you also admit that before!
so please dont blame me too!
just give me a comment nicely :)

There's a lot to say
However, i'll just end here
i scare due to this post..we argue again
i really hate argue!! so much!!

you'll hurt me later..
so now dont hurt me anymore..
give me what i want..and makes me happy :)

AND do remember!!
i always understand you :)
i always care for you
i always love you
i always miss you
i always loyal to you
i always honest to you

even i know you dont love that much
but i never think to betray you
you should have no doubt on me
so please never betray me too!!

>> if you saw this post please dont get anger on me.

Thanks for loving me and take care of me until now.

deep inside my heart
i was praying that you will never leave me
i wish the day never come
i pray you would love me as much as i love you
and maybe much more than that

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